Another Day

So I have not been updating this like I thought I was but been going through the hurdles here and trying to put my focus into my program.

A lot is going on here with me, I went to church today and it really hit me that this is the time for me to grow not only physically but in the spirit as well. I need to stop trying to hide from my past and just embrace it and let it be a part of what also fuels me to make me grow in my present. I can not tell you what or where my future holds for me but I cant sit and dwell on that because that will take me away from here where I need to be.

This is where I was brought to start a new and to grow some roots and to gain some foundation, Yes I found this program but I am seeing that it just isnt what I do, There are others that have the influence per say.

Late Night Poetry

 Last night I was laying there battling with falling asleep and these are just some words that kept flowing through my head.

Inside
So far inside there is a mess
So I must confess and get this off my chest
My heart breaks
As my soul continues to ache
With its inner most questions go with unknown answers

Ponder
Often I ponder
And thy brain will wander
From where is thy love
And than I draw a line
To only remember that
Thy divine love is from no one else but the man above

My Own Prison
Alone is where I keep
My thoughts run through me oh so deep
The shadows often sit quietly and continue to weep
Still my secrets are held in deep
So dark and alone unable to see the light

Life Quote

 I was looking up quotes the other day and I came across this one and I really liked it so I printed it and put it in my journal, None the less I thought that I would share it here as well.

There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout.
This is me damn it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me... or leave me. Accept me - or walk away! Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision. When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad - you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you.

The beginning of all beginnings...

Well here I am yet again, I have started many web blogs in the past and lost interest in them through out the time of their existence but I am hoping that this one will be different.

I have started a new chapter in my life and have begin to make many changes in my life, I suppose I should give some history as to who I am so you can get an idea of who is writing these post.

My name is Melodie currently living in Albuquerque, NM but originally from the pacific northwest but have traveled some due to being a former US Army wife.

I am a mother of multiples, My children are truly the best gift I have ever been given, They are what keep me moving forward in this day and time.

I am a addict, We will just say I have had my battles with various addictions but am now in the process of learning sobriety and recovery.

I am a collecter of ink, I have about seven pieces and await the day when I get more. I do not have a particular style, I like it all.

As far as what I am into, I like to write poetry, cook, take pictures, scrapbook, make jewlery, read, listen to music. There is more but it just all depends on the given time and effort to get into.

Well I think I will call it good and complete my first post for now but plan on keeping with the blogging this time and have many post in the future.